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*blink blink* It must be a refreshing change to see some content here after so many months.
(note: Website still loooking a bit messy. I know, I know. At the moment you are reading this, I might still be working on the CSS. I’ll try to finish fixing everything before I go to bed.)

My last official entry was on the 6th June after all. More than 3 months. Missed me?

So many things have happened.
I didn’t feel like updating at all because I was depressed.

The 3rd July 2006 is a day I’ll forever remember. Things eventually worked out but still, I feel like I got scarred emotionally. I had never felt so full of doubts like that before.
Moreover, I was unable to go on my trip. I was stuck in Shanghai for the hols and it sure wasn’t pleasant at all. They were the hottest months of the year and my friends were elsewhere for the holidays. A few more things happened but I won’t go into the details. It’s all in the past now. Still, the good thing is that I feel a bit stronger after all this. Ah… and I finally received my new passport and had my new residence permit done. Those people who managed to catch me on msn know how stressed I had been. I got my new passport during the middle of August and it was too late to go on the trip by then. I’m very sad about not having gone to Malaysia and Singapore but there’s always next year.
I’d like to say a BIG thank you to those people who emailed me out of concern. I never replied because writing about my problems were making me feel even more depressed at that time. I hope that you will understand. Again , thanks a lot.

I might have had boring holidays but at least, now everything is alright. I even lost a few kgs during the hols. Food didn’t taste good when I was eating alone everyday.
I moved to International Students Building 1 at the end of August. I live in a single room now. The room is smaller than my previous one and there is no bathtub in the bathroom. Still, I love my new room. I’m still not done with decorating and cleaning. I have too many things which I cannot bear to throw away. My bf once said to me: “You think you garang guni ah? “. My things are not junk. Most of them have sentimental values. Anyway, I will post pics of my room when I’m done.

My ex-roommate is now living on the 9th floor. I’m on the 10th. Strangely, my ex-roommate and I exchanged a few words in class the other day. We had been acting like strangers, completely ignoring each other during the last few months that we were living together. I didn’t think that we could ever talk to each other again. Still, it’s a good thing. It’s high time to move on.

oh… and I turned 22 years old two weeks ago (on the 9 th September) ! I didn’t do anything special for my birthday and I don’t feel any older. The semester started on the 11th September and I feel great. Time sure flies. I’m in my 3rd year already. It doesn’t really feel like two years have passed. Anyway, it also means that I have two more years left until I graduate.

Life, whether in a foreign country or in one’s own country isn’t always easy. Once in a while, you encounter difficulties and feel all alone. It’s not easy but never give up. Suicide might seem to be the easiest way out but think of the happy times you’ve had, think of the things you still have to do in life and think of the family and friends that you’ll be leaving behind.. They are those people who love you, who want to help you. Please accept their help. Dealing with the pain all alone is too hard. After the rain ,comes the sun and maybe even a rainbow…

I’m telling this to anyone who might be reading my blog but I’m also telling this to myself. I was someone who took rash decisions when I was a teenager. It was a difficult period but I made it through somehow and I don’t regret being still here.
Let’s enjoy life.

I have started reading his blog around one month ago after he left a comment on my blog. After some time when I visited his blog again, I noticed that he deleted all his entries. Since I don’t know him, I had no idea what happened but today, upon reading Andy’s blog entry, I learned of the sad and tragic thing which happened one week ago.

I read a few comments here and there and it seems that some people don’t believe that what happened is true. Some are saying that it’s some kind of joke. Maybe it’s hard to accept but it’s a fact. It happened.

RIP Shawn.

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